*where i'm downloading sapuri ep3 + listening to dreams by news*

ohaiyo minna-san....me no mood to study now, so goin to mengarut jap....was juz goin thru my normal routine of checking out J-websites, and knw wht me found?*dgn nada excited nye* sapuri ep3!!! *mmmmuuuaaahhhssss to nomanymore* so me start downloading to watch it now gak...cannot wait for hana to give me the cd*hit!!hit!!!.. impatient me...adeh..* me thnk me dvlping sum kind of like for kame-kun too...tu yg tak sabar sgt nk tgk sapuri....haha....nurul....suma ur fault....me dah jatuh cinta wif his hair....wawawa....

and smbil2 tu, me listening to lagu dreams - news....i knw..i knw...it's such an old song....can u believe tht i br je dgr....i2 pun psl ada kat nomanymore *kudos to u ne...me got a lot of thgs frm u today...yippeee* and so, i decided tht me mmg suka suma lagu2 news....like i like all of kat-tun's songs....actually kan, me easy to like songs....klu bg me dgr lagu group2 johnny yg lain pn, most probably, me gonna like it... but, tht doesnt mean me gonna like the individuals in the group...no...no...tht has to be developed...like me developing my love for p-kun and now developing a like for kame-chan*wink*...

and also, me was juz reading bharian td...and i passed thru this article where a girl complained yg dier kena tggl by her boyfriend.....konon2nye, the guy kata he tak layak for the girl yg bljr kt universiti sedangkan he is only an office boy...but u knw wht?*me saying it with nada marah*tht stupid idotic guy actually left the gurl for another prettier, sexier, putih melepak gurl...huh!!!!*angry mode activated!!!* how dare tht guy buat mcm tu....dh lar tipu pompuan tu about the reason for break up...pastu blh kuar ngn pompuan lain like a week after tht.....me hate ppl yg mcm ni!!!!!!

somehow kan, i think this isnt the 1st time these kind of thgs jd....and org pompuan yg biasanye suffer bcoz lelaki buat gurls mcm baju yg blh ditukar2....me so mad with this stuffs....isnt there a nice guy out there anymore?well..i'm guessing yg they are out there...tp all are alredi snatched up... ish2....then aper nak jadi kat gurls yg lain2 ni ek?cian kan kat gurls sbnrnye*self pity mode sorta activated*...i mean, we are told to dress up nice, learn to cook, be smart, etc....tp in the end, why do guys always cr girls yg pretty only?*ok..ok...i knw, tht's a stupid question....mesti lar nk pompuan lawa...kata pn blh jd 'trophy' and 'arm candy'* tp kan, isnt there sumthg deeper thn being beautiful superficially....i mean, there's no harm in liking sum1 pretty, but shouldnt there be a much stronger reason to have a relationship...sumthg like the personality of the gurl ke....i mean, looks might and will change later...then what? tgglkan tht gurl n look for another?sumtimes rite, me thnk tht life can be a tad cruel....in the sense tht, it's unfair for only the girls to be trying so hard and then l8r end up upset and all..

nways, for me, there was once when i had a breakdown bcoz a guy repeatedly said or acted like i was ugly *cant believe it now, tht me had actually let the guy's word get through to me!!*....but thanks to the kindness of a friend of mine*i'll be forever indebted to ur kind words dear!!!* i felt much better....basicly, she gave this text msg to me which said : "my dear, look means nothing w/out brains, u're beautiful in and out...ur great personality is more than enuf to reflect the beauty inside of u...4get wht any1 else says, they're juz blind and unappreciative!"...and this saying has been wht i held on to whenever i felt down bcoz of my appearance..

u can call me shallow n naive all u want, but i guess i'm only human, and i too thnk of my looks at times, i guess indirectly the world makes me thnk of it *due to all the advertisements n movies where models n artists look gorgeous on screen*...anyhow, i have come to terms and accepted the way i look lately...in fact, i'm learning to love myself more and more....and yes, i do thank God a lot for all he has given me....i believe tht only He knws wht is best for me, and so, He gave me those 'thgs' tht will me make unique and make me more like me...thank god, i'm not a 'xerox' copy of sum1 else!!!


p/s: i've made a conclusion : study period seems to get u thinking a lot, well at least for me it does...hmmmm...but sadly though, non of it are study-related....aiyak...me so in big trouble for not studying properly....waaaaaaa.....