*it's been a while..*

ok.. i hv a few thgs to talk about, so i'll b breaking this post up to a few parts..

PART1 - the one when i became a pseudo-houseman:
i felt wonderful.. i felt useful.. i felt tht i did not need to drag myself to the hospital anymore in the mornings, simply bcoz i knew i loved wht i was doing... i felt appreciated... and tht was all ONLY during internal medicine posting... after goin into surgery in muar, i found tht the same routine was mundane, and i was angered by the fact tht certain ppl thnk tht life revolves around them only... those facts made my posting suck... *or maybe i'm juz not tht into surgery as i thought i was* and so, i started having 2nd thoughts on specializing in surgery.. i blame it on the journey to muar, i blame it on those selfish ppl, but more importantly, i blame it on myself for being easily affected by changes around me.... thank god, however, tht i managed to somehow get bck my footing in O&G... i wouldnt say i love it, but, after prodding my vry 1st pregnant lady's vagina yesterday *yeah2... i knw, i'm slow*, i felt a sense of accomplishment, almost similar to wht i felt when posted in internal medicine... is this God's way of trying to tell me tht surgery may not be my cup of tea after all? hmmm... only time will tell i guess... for now, i need to focus on studying for my final MBBS *for which i havent started... arrrggghhhhhhh!!!!* and pass it *hopefully with flying colours..haha...*

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PART2 - the one when it's weddings galore:
it's tht time of year again, the time when all my cousins decide to get married... this time around, there's one in tawau and another in penang... and guess wht, hooray for me for being stuck here in this 'lovely' place instead of being present by their side for the best day of their life... lucky me huh? i cant even do sumthg tht i totally love... at the rate thgs r goin, i wonder whether i can even b there for my own wedding.. not tht i hv plans for it yet anyways.. haha...

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PART3 - the one when ppl shud learn to b grateful:
'thank you' is not a very difficult thg to say, is it? in fact, i find saying tht much easier than saying 'sorry'... so why is it tht ppl dont use it anymore? we, doctors *or soon-t0-be doctors* might be selfless beings who devote our time and energy to the healing of ppl, but we are also human, and we would definitely appreciate a simple thank you, or even a smile of acknowledgement to brighten up our day... dont blame us for looking irritated.. we r surrounded by those sort of ppl day in and day out *sick ppl who are grumpy*, so obviously it might rub on us a bit.. and dont tell us off for doing work slowly, or even resting for a while, when u dont really know the workload tht we have... we are doing our job to the best of our abilities, and if tht appears insufficient for u, then it's juz too bad for u, coz u have to remember tht u're not the only one we're serving...

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PART4 - the one when u're old alredi?
it was my one and only kambing's bday on 04/06.. as usual, being the lazy bum i am, i didnt bother putting up a post on tht day.. anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST BRO!! i'll thnk of smthg nice to get for ur b'day k... it might take sum time though to come up with a good present for u.. ish2 *scratches head while thinking*
btw, with more ppl getting wiser *and older*, i've noticed tht more and more ppl are starting to thnk and talk more openly on marriage, children and future plans.. i guess, as much as u try to act like a child, u will somehow show ur maturity when this sort of discussion arises...

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PART5 - the one when i thought i knew u..
at a certain point in my life, i started to realize tht i didnt really knw about sum ppl around me.. it breaks my heart to finally realize tht i'm no special to them, tht they probably dont trust me enuf with their secrets, and tht they r probably suffering all alone without me being there to help them, simply bcoz i was kept in the dark on tht matter for all these times..
p/s to my frens: pls do tell me ur troubles and worries, for i dont want to b a fren of happy times only.. i want to be a fren through thick and thin, and even though i may not be able to solve the prob, but i can at least offer my shoulder for u to cry on...

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k lar, i need to go get ready, goin out for lunch in a bit... i leave u with a newly found lovely piece of music.. jyaaaaaaaaaaaa......