*may...a month of contemplation*

sigh....
my laziness is so overwhelming these days, tht i cant even breathe thinking bout it... my chest feels so heavy everytime i do a bad thg*note: not tht i've been an angel thruout my life anyway* ish2.... why i'm such a procrastinator and a lazy bum at the same time defies my logic... i mean, i can pretty much be 'kiasu' when the 'calling' comes, but at other times, i simply like relaxing and doing nothing (read: sleeping and watching dramas or reading novels) even if tht actually means me getting up at mid-day, and then fret over how little time i have left to do so many thgs... ish2.... i cant seem to pin-point juz where my extreme laziness started frm... at the rate i'm doing thgs lately, i'm pretty much unsure of me being able to pass mbbs and being a good doctor... huhu... ottokei yo??

nways, since may is about to come to an end.. and seeing tht i have barely updated my blog lately*i havent even read other's blogs or catch up on dbsk's and news' stuffs*, i decided to waste time and type one out *haha...and after this, i'm gonna sit around bonking myself for not having enough time to finish my hra and ortho case...huwawawaa* nways, so much had happened this past mth... some happy, some sad... some thgs irritated me, while at other times i had successfully managed to irritate ppl *yeah2...i knw i'm evil like tht*

random *and some special* stuffs tht had happened ths mth :

(1) happy mother's day mak!! *sori tht ths special day didnt get an entry of its own, coz i'm lazy like tht* nways, hope u will always be healthy to see ur children grow up, get married and have their own children.. and maybe at tht time, u can say "i told u so..." for all the times we didnt listen to ur advices.... ^^

(2) sengil chukae dongsaeng!!! though like i might've mentioned earlier, tht i believe tht u live only to irritate the hell out of me, but still saranghae kecik!!

(3) one of my fav thgs broke down on me (read: my laptop crashed) can u imagine going on without a laptop for a week when u r so used to having one? god!! all tht i can say is tht it was pure torture!!! @_@ and even now, my laptop is still in the icu (read: twinhead center) with me anxiously waiting for its prognosis... huhu.... thank god my dad was such a sweetheart *as he always is^^* and decided tht i could take back his laptop for my use while my own laptop is being examined and scrutinized... haishhhhhh... pity my dad coz he obviously needs to use the laptop for his work, but as all parents would do, he thought of his child and her studies 1st before his own needs... *and so, all the more reason for me to go and start doing my hra and ortho case rite? ish.... * *_*

(4) more and more friends and cousins are getting married... seniors frm camp, batch mates and school mates are all sending in invitation cards to their wedding... there was even this one card frm a school mate who i wasnt even acquaintance with (read: i barely recognized her name and face on the card) ish2... am i growing old and forgetful already? and there's also my cousin sister who's of the same age with me getting married at the end of this year... she's the cousin sister who i thought would settle down last.. talk about a twist in plans!!! nways, tht's beside the point... the point is tht i realize tht it's about time i started being more serious about relationship matters... all these while, i was happy and contented with being single *as a matter of fact, i still am* but, after my parents decided tht i was old enough to have the 'talk', it finally hit me tht i'm actually of age to start thinking about settling down... honestly speaking, it's such a freedom when u can start talking frankly with ur parents about such thgs.. i had always wanted to talk to them bout the guy of my dream (read: my idea of an ideal guy) and ask them for their opinions on the same... but then i started getting worried about all the commitments tht come with settling down... i for one am obviously not ready for such a thg nw --> i have plans in life and dreams tht i'd like to achieve 1st before settling down... but then again. after talking to my parents and aunties and uncles lately, i've started realizing tht i'm not a child tht i had hoped i'd always be... and i cant always have thgs done my way even if it is my life which is at stake... huhu... how depressing is tht? but then again, it's all in god's hands... i believe tht He knws wht's best for me... and so, i shall wait and see for wht the future holds for me..... =p

(5) lately, my pms has been getting worse... in fact, this mth's was the most extreme tht i've ever experienced... no, no... i'm not talking bout the pain... i'm talking bout my emotional lability... huhu... i never knew a person can experience so many different feelings at the same time... and all those for no good reason plak tuh... haisssshhhhh.... i really have to start getting a grip of myself, coz each time tht happens to me, i worry everyone around me... and worst, i irritate them simply bcoz i'm irritated myself... i dont like it when the evil me surfaces.... and so, i'm truly sorry ye everyone who was affected by my moody-ness... i'll try to be more of a good girl the next time!! ^^

k lar, i'm off to hopefully start getting some work done... *charging myself with the 'rajin' aura*
jyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~