*when it's alredi time to grow up??*

i did sumthg today tht i havent done since last march...
i cried....
and tht too bcoz of homesick-ness....
can u believe it? must be the hormones working...
but tht's beside the point...
the point is tht --> i cried over sumthg tht a normal grown up wouldnt hv done *especially when melaka-KL is only 2hrs away by bus*
but then again, it's not like i can go back anyway despite me really wanting to do so, so badly...
and tht's bcoz of the upcoming medicine mid-yr exam which is due next week....
why am i so worked up over an exam u say?
i guess, my mood of studying this early *well....it is early for me since i am after all the queen of procrastinators who usually starts her work only a day before the deadline* is mainly due to the dean's honor roll list announced yesterday during annual nite...
it was a definite slap to my face when i noticed not a single student standing on the stage was a muslim... i mean, how embarassing is tht?
WE are supposed to be the khalifah on this earth!!! then how come it's the other religions doing better than us? *not tht i'm being racist and all...*
and so, i made up my mind to work really hard on passing all my exams with flying colours, in the hope tht i may hv a chance to stand on stage for the honour roll nxt year....
and if i failed to succeed, at least i'll be at peace with myself and the fact i tried my best to fulfill my responsibility....
after all, i've got to live up to my motto 'TRY MY BEST TO BE THE BEST AMONG THE BEST' which has always been fulfilled all these while during my schooling days...
it's juz sad tht somehow i slowly forgot about my real goals in life...
i got distracted by minor thgs and got worked up for no good reason....
but then, after reading one of the dbsk interviews yesterday after coming back from annual nite, i was shocked to find tht micky also said the exact same thg as his motto and i was suddenly reminded of all my goals to be achieved in life....
laugh all u want, snicker if u must, but i will not be perturbed by those thgs anymore...
it may sound ridiculous tht such a simple thg triggered me to start getting my focus back in life, but i think Allah the Almighty has his own agenda .... and He gives guidance in unexpected ways, for which i really am thankful for!!

well, it's been a vry lengthy and full of emotions entry, but i feel better nw....
off to clean my room *and hopefully keep it clean, though i doubt tht it'll be so for long, coz i need to study after tht, and my room is always in a mess when i study... haha....*

jya, hv a good day ppl!!! itte kimassuu!!!! ^^