*a totally hishashiburi entry*

like wow! i havent been writing in my blog for a really really long time!! lazy? maybe... busy? hmmmm..... internet line disconnected in hostel? yup2!! whateva pun, am so glad to be back in the 'writing' *aka ranting* mood... and the upper part of it all *or is it the downside?* i have tons of thgs to write bout... yeay?!?

ok... 1st thgs 1st...
extreme belated OTANJYOUBI OMEDETOU Senpai *aka sukebe-chan*
i'm so glad to have u as my fren dear!! hope u'll always be genki *after all, i'm always around to make sure you do rite? hehe..* tomodachi forever ne!! *mwahs mwahs*
p/s: ur gift is otw.. *winkies*

orait, next up ---> i had a vry nice patient 3weeks back.. though i cant tell u his name, i can tell u this much... he is definitely a patient that most doctor would want... he was so cooperative and soft-spoken and well-mannered despite the fact that he has been in and out of the hospital constantly... i was most touched when he actually gave me a pentorch *which can of course be used to check patients* and told me to study hard and become a great doctor!! huhu..... i was really thankful to tht patient for the sweet memory he gave me.. from now onwards, i knw tht whenever i feel down and wonder why i chose this career in the 1st place, i can always reflect back on this particular memory and tell myself confidently tht it was bcoz of ppl like these tht i chose to serve ppl and make them feel better!! =p

moving on to another matter, and with this, my ranting mode is on :
have u ever thought of how helpless and worthless u are in helping those that u love the most? i have... and i can tell u this : it's the worst feeling ever... kimochi waruii!! the thought that even at this age i cant help my loved ones makes me feel sick to my stomach... huwaaaaa..... life is difficult in its own intricate way... how i wish that i can be more useful than only being able to offer to listen and lend a shoulder to cry on... demo, after listening to so many problems around me *which are much worst at times* i am sorta thankful and grateful to Allah for whatever He has given me and my loved ones... i juz hope that brighter days will come ahead later...
ranting mode off

p/s: exams are an evil way of getting the worst and also the best out of ppl... in a way, it shows the good part in ppl when they share the knowledge they have and also work hard in succeeding.. but it also reveals the dark side of ppl when they are reluctant in sharing the knowledge they've acquired... and i personally dislike ppl who are in the latter category.. whatever it is, it all boils down to the fact of whether we pass or fail... at times like these, it matters not that we've ganbatte like nobody's business... what matters is the fact tht u made the cut or not... *sigh* life is unfair... i know..... and i'm juz glad tht the exams are all over for now.... *_*