*the one when things dont always go according to plan*

konbawa minna....
have anyone of u ever had the feeling tht u should not be telling others about ur plans bcoz it might not happen or the plans might backfire on urself? or am i juz an exception and am the only one having this sort of problem all the time? *sighs*

random backfired / not worked out plan for the past week :

1) said tht i was gonna update my blog regularly everyday, but ended up blogging only now after so long... huhu... how do i stop this lazy demon in me frm taking over my life? i havent even been studying properly for the past 2 end-postings... my procrastination is killing me.... huwaaaa....

2) said tht i wasnt gonna speak to a particular person bcoz of wht he did to me, but i ended up talking to him anyways bcoz of my father's reasoning tht : "we r being nice to others not bcoz they r nice ppl but bcoz we're a nice person.." huhu... vry true... and so, i decided to put aside my anger and be more matured by acknowledging and talking to a person who i dont really like.... hypocrite u say? so be it... XD

3) said tht i was gonna go watch POC3, but ended up staying in my rum studying for psychiatry end-posting bcoz my mum said : "listen to mak, dont go to the movies... u shud study..." ish2.... burn RM10 juz like tht bcoz i didnt go...

4) said tht i'll be happy not being a leader coz it's less of a burden on my shoulder, but deep down i still feel sad boz i'm so used to being one, and it feels weird when ppl dont depend on u anymore, and instead u depend on others for certain information....

5) said tht i'm gonna be more independent than usual, but i decided to cancel my plan of going back home this weekend bcoz none of my friends or even my brother is not goin back home, and i dont wanna travel alone..

6) said tht i'd be a better friend for sum ppl, but ended up not really talking much to them even when we actually used to be really close to each other...

7) said tht i wouldnt feel jealous of others achievement or qualities tht they have, but i still do despite me telling myself tht i shud be contented instead with whtever Allah has given me....

huhu.... and the list goes on and on... i can continue babbling but i thnk i shud stop now coz i'm feeling rather sleepy and wanna take a short nap before my agama class.. jya ne....