o~ha~yo minna... i juz woke up... hehe... i knw, i knw... anak dara apekah ini?? wahaha... nways, i'm gonna leave for CD and udupi jap lg... have to fill farah's hungry stomach 1st before we can go 'kain-baju-hunting' for annual day... btw, nurul is still nicely asleep...even when we were talking to her on the phone to wake her up tadi pun she sounded so mamai...hopefully she'll wake up soon so tht she can join us 4 breakfast at CD...
k lar, i'll leave it here as it is with the omoshiroii topic... i'll have a 'small' write up on it after i come back frm udupi.. hopefully i'll still have sum energy after the 'expedition'...haha.... matta ne... ^^
*edited* --->
why do ppl always think tht when a person says "u r forgiven", tht everythg will return back to normal... dont they think tht thgs can never be the same no matter wht, even if forgiveness is asked and given... i mean, for me, it's rather easy to forgive a person no matter wht the person did.. i'm more than willing to accept apologies frm ppl who says sorry... but personally, i'm a bit 'stone-hearted' in the sense tht i'd never be able to forget wht had happened.. or even if i forget, it's not possible for me to act the same way with the person who had hurt me.. after all, i'm not an angel or anythg close to it.. to me, reconciliation is a very hard thg... yes i've forgiven the person, but tht doesnt mean tht i'd like to be friends with him / her like before.. especially not after knowing wht they did and wht they could do... isnt it only natural for me to withdraw back and have some sort of guarding against those ppl... isnt it nature's way of self defense against somethg which might or have harm us? even our immune system in the body has some sort of memory cells which is triggered in times of stress if there was a previous similar stress rite? and so, isnt it natural to have this kind of feelings?? demo ne, why do i feel awful whenever i think tht i myself would never agree to reconcile with tht person? am i juz being plain stubborn?? haishhh.. life is complicated ne?? or rather, i'm the one complicating it by being complicated myself... ish2... does any of these even make sense??!! *_*
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selamat gi udupi!
heheee
and remind nurul to take ken2..
he is missing nurul koyapichan muchos already..
slamat...slamat...
slamat shopping hhiiihii
yappari...you DID buy something..haha
to hana & adie ---> hehe... dh abes shopping dh..farah yg shopping.... ^^
to nurul ---> YOU bought somethg too!!! hehe...
on things you said, the edited version..
yea.. indeed.. its hard to act like everything is all okay as if nothing ever happened..
when i think about it.. i dont think i can ever act biasa too..
but when time goes on.. you tend to shrug everything off and think of the matter as nothing and finally can act biasa with person but with extra caution..
i think the real culprit here is our ego..
just imagine rasul-allah s.w.t can forgive his umat who had done horrible things beyond our thinking and yet he can forgive them..
dismissing our ego is an extremely hard task.. very hard.. huhuuu.. people who are able to do that are very respectable indeed.. i wont be able to.. and all that i can do is try crushing my ego as much as i can though it pains me a lot to do so.. especially when the person on the other side is an ass..
sorry for the very long comment.. =D
hana-chan, doumo for the 'long' comment!!
i've thought about rasullullah too..and it made me admire him more and more...i can never be tht way no matter how much i try... mochiron, with time, i might 'act' normally in front of those ppl.. demo ne, deep down, i knw tht i'm really not ok with them or with me being there with them.. ish2...
haaaaaaa my worst-est point is...i will never ever act the same.so hidoii i know...but at the same time i dun want to pretend to be nice either !!
forgive...remember and let go...to be the same like before i really can't...i just erased every thing/person like i've never know them...that's it.
hahhahaha i can be really nice and angelic if i want to...and at the same time i can be really mean to the core...
maaaaaaa dun follow me my dear...like what hana said...forgive and most importantly try to forget...
who knows maybe next time you really need the forgiveness and things to be like how it used to be but you were denied the chance to do so...hmmmm pretty hard to take na???hehe *dedicated to myself too*...
hehe... pretty much a long comment too i guess..gomen~~
to nurul ---> ganbarre massu... i knw i shud try to change tht particular weakness in me.. and though i also knw for sure tht i might not be able to do it properly, at least i'll knw tht i did try and be happy knowing tht i did... =p
yosh!!! lets all try to work on our weaknesses ne..
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