*hitori jyanai*

sudden, random thoughts ---> bcoz of certain thgs happening to me lately, i started thinking that i'm really a very bad person... that i'm gonna be left all alone by myself... that i'm not loved... tht no one really cares about me... i started getting scared of other ppl's thought about me.. i'm worried about how others perceive me and judge me... i'm freaking out about wht others might be talking about me behind my back.... and i got really upset and cried a lot... =(

demo ne, thanks to my wonderful friends, i got back on the right track... thanks to them, i felt tht i'm loved and cared about... thanks to them, i feel that i'm not alone... thanks to them, i dont really care what others think of me, juz as long as they trust and believe in me... thanks to them, i'm really grateful to god, for giving me a silver lining between the dark clouds... thanks to them, i can still somewhat smile and put my troubles away... thanks to them, i really feel that i'm blessed by god eventhough i'm going thru a rough time... and most importantly, thanks to them, i'm able to survive the ordeal eventhough it really is hard to move on to the next moment of the day...

Quoting Pi-chan ---> "If, the people important to me were to suddenly go away right now, I don't think i will be able to do anything. It seems like people can't live on there own ne!" ---> dakara minna, pls dont ever leave me... i'd be heart-broken if i ever loose even a single one of u... like senpai said, all of us are like jigsaw puzzles, if even one is lost, it can never be the same again, as nothing will be as fun as the time we're all together...

sudden thought #2 ---> jinny dear, eventhough u're going overseas to study on ur own, dont feel sad and lonely k... u have friends who'll always be thinking of u *yamapi + kt-tun* and us the fangirls who'll be waiting for ur return... we'll all be missing u... dakara, hayaku2 ne come back!!!

and as a farewell gift for u, dozo ---> PRECIOUS ONE *bcoz u're also part of the precious thgs in my life...*



and as for all my friends, u guys are more than precious to me... it's an indescribable feeling to have u guys around me and to know tht u guys believe in me and care about me... minna, doumo arigato gozaimasu for always being around for me, thanks for all the sad and happy memories we've had... i'm really looking forward to having lots more memories with u guys... lets stay friends forever and ever ne... zutto isshio do ne!!!

p/s: Pi-chan, dont feel sad and lonely k... *bcoz it upsets me to knw tht u're feeling tht way* jinny is going away only for 6mths... b4 we realize it, jinny will be back with all of us... lets juz make full use of the 6mths and live a life without regret while waiting for him to return ne... i knw tht jinny will also want us all to move on and not be sad for him... =p